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April 11, 2010

Week 1 - Post Treatment

It has been a difficult first week post treatment. Despairing, painful, hard.

As the primary care giver for Michael, I recognize my limitations. This week has brought those limitations into sharp relief. I have felt so helpless at times in caring for Michael as there is really nothing I can do to speed up recovery so that he can feel better. I can be there as a shoulder to cry on, someone who can clean his wound, someone who can calculate his calories, someone who can administer his medications, but yet, I still feel it is not enough when I see his pain and despair.

It is also a balancing act of knowing when to provide help versus asking is there anything you need. At times Michael does not know what he needs and I haven't a clue what to do either. It is an impossible situation and the endless dilemma of the care giver.

I hope this week is better.

Posted by Claire at April 11, 2010 09:53 PM